Am I crazy?

Am I crazy to going ahead with this surgery? Should I watch and wait???? Now that I have GREATLY reduced my work load, I feel a whole lot less stressed and happier....am I just in the wrong job? Should I just accept that my brain is what it is (poor executive functioning an all) and that being a BCBA in Birth to Three where I have to organize multiple schedules and paperwork is just not a good fit? Should I try just having a handful of clients and take the whole watch and wait approach with my tumor? But then again it seems that every story I have read about an educated person (especially those in the medical field) have opted to have removal because while the tumor is slow growing, it is growing and a number of complications can arise including more seizures, meningitis, encasing cranial nerves and arteries.... Not to mention my host of personality/emotional and hormonal issues that could be linked to my tumor given it's size and location.
earlier diagnosis and complete excision or near total excision of this benign tumor can cure the patient with the expectation of normal life." I was supposed to meet with my neurologist today but the appointment was cancelled last minute because my doctor is sick (unfortunately everyone around here is sick). While I am glad that he took the times off and spare infecting others, I am a bit nervous because this was my follow up with him to fill him in that I will be having surgery to remove the epidermoid tumor.