Happy 35
Thursday, June 9, 2022
Friday, October 29, 2021
masking --> social exhaustion --> social isolation
I have engaged in quite a bit of social isolation, it became really significant during my high school years and something continued to do throughout college, young adulthood, and now. After listening to a behavior speak podcast episode on ASD in girls I realize that one of the primary reasons I isolate(d) is because masking is exhausting and I was/am terrified that if people found out who I really am without the "Act", they would no longer like me. This led to lots of social isolation and missing out on building real, true relationships. Only a handful of people truly know me and still love me, my family and my husband....and I still am amazed by him and think he is unbalanced or something to love me in spite of knowing the real me
ASD, girls, social motivation and language thoughts
Girls --> more social motivation (as evidence by Chawarska 2016) and my own experience with girls (ES, MW, Am, etc) ----- does this increase in social motivation lead to them attend to language more (conversation with Naigles about importance of helping children with ASD realize value of language and attend to language because they are completely capable of learning...it seems to be more of a fact that they are not attending likely because they do not realize the importance) ------perhaps this is why so many girls without language delays go undiagnosed or get misdiagnosed..more evidence that there are likely more girls with ASD than diagnosed and why the few girls that are diagnosed tend to be more impaired especially in terms of language.
Choi dissertation study 2 - mid dump
sensory processing????
all of this does not help my goal of pursuing a career in research and obtaining my phd...how can I possibly navigate the application process and (if by some miracle get into a program) degree program when I cannot navigate daily living and am so far removed from academic experience. I would love to audit a bunch of statistics and research methods courses to brush up on my knowledge...maybe I should contact old professors at SCSU...